Confessions of A Dramatic Nonsensical Chocoholic

moving out

2009-06-14T11:58:00.004+08:00

A new Home.

A new Life.

topik Gerek Seh!

2009-06-09T14:08:00.016+08:00

so last nite we talked abt hari raya. padahal belom lagi puasa seh. hahaha. it's just that me and him got carried away with all those sweet memories of raya. buka puasa lah, geylang bazaar lah, baju raya, lagu raya, ketupat, lepat, lontong, air kathira, semua lah. didn't know he can anyam ketupat. omg! malu nyer. i myself tak pass menganyam. ibu!!! tolong!!! malu malu. haish. he told me he jaga all the ketupat, lontong n lepat bila direbus. his father expert buat lepat u noe. woah, all home-made. best! omg. cakap pasal raya ni, rasa tak sabar nak puasa. the suasana, the mood, the feeling is so so different than bulan2 yg lain. the exciting part is when all the muslims, baik makcik2 kepo and mat2 motor(ni yg best), turun ramai2 gi geylang bazaar and buy lots n lots of stuff, from baju raya to kuih raya to kasut raya to bunga raya to hantu raya. hahahahaha. padahal hantu2 semua kene lokap ah time bulan puasa. gendeng. tak perlu seh itu komen. anyways. im so looking forward to ramadhan. boleh buka puasa ngan my old frends. 4C gathering babe. yahoooooooo! and of course, boleh cuci mata at the bazaar. hehe. pls eh, bukan aku sorang jer tau, i noe all the girls will like this part lah ok. but he told me, cuci mata tengok mat2 kaper. pergilah terawih, kan bagus. hehe. oops! sesungguhnya umat islam digalakkan utk melebihkan ibadah dlm bulan ramadhan, bulan yg suci. so folks, jgn lupa terawih yer =)

Sendiri.

2009-06-01T20:03:00.007+08:00

Tiba-tiba aku rasa sepi.

Sepi tanpa berita,

tanpa bicara,

tanpa gurau senda,

tanpa gelak tawa.

Diri mula rasa dipinggirkan.

Diri mula rasa keseorangan.

Sendiri.

Sunyi.

Padan Muka Aku

2009-05-26T22:22:00.017+08:00

went out with bestie, eja, on sat. had brunch at banquet. ate chicken chop. talk talk. and off we went to the movies to watch nite at the museum 2! damn hilarious! kept laughing till my jaws hurt. hahaha. and the fact that i haven't been to the movies for quite a while, it's worth my every cent. 2 thumbs up! after that, both of us decided to walk around arab street. u noe like, it's sat nite/no sch or work tmr/'cuci mata' kinda thing. lol. felt hungry and grab a bite at zam zam. i felt like eating chicken murtabak so i bought one. damn huge lah can! so i only ate half of it and the other half 'tapau' back home. eja and i walked down the street to find the place where she used to sheesha with her frends. i thought, hmm, maybe i wanna try sheesha-ing. well, there's always a first time to everything. found the place and so i said okey, let's sheesha! but yeah, i've to admit. i was kinda nervous about this. i was like, i'm gonna smoke sheesha? for real? fcuk! wth am i doing? i remembered back in egypt, i was so annoyed by the smoke produced by some egyptians who sheesha-ed next to my table in a posh restaurant. coz of that, i had to move to another table just to get away from that distinct smell. and now here i am sitting down, waiting for that sheesha thing to be served. btw, we ordered rose flavour as recommended by eja. she said it's light. and so when i wanted to have my first smoke, i kept hesitating. but nontheless, i tried. and i coughed. gawd. eventually, i got the hang of it lah. but after sheesh-ing, my throat started to feel uneasy. and damn it, within 2 days, i got a sore throat. kept coughing and all that phlegms. yeah, disgusting huh. lost my voice and rite now, i'm recovering. if i were to take part in any singing competition now, the judges would say my voice suits all those hardcore rock songs. uhuh. padan muka aku.

H for Hope. H for Hurt. H for Hate.

2009-05-15T00:16:00.007+08:00

there's nothing wrong with hoping.

but

don't hope too much.

don't set your hopes too high.

for it will be painful,

so so painful

if these hopes come crushing on the ground.

this serves as a reminder

or a lesson,

for those who have experienced the pain.

a lesson being taught

again and again.

sometimes,

you don't realize

how high you have lifted your hopes.

until one day,

when you started to feel that pain,

that unbearable feeling,

piercing your little heart.

only then

will you realize

the problem with hoping too much.

just too much.

painful, huh?

it hurts.

don't you hate that?

So You Think You Are Multi-Lingual?

2009-05-07T22:59:00.002+08:00

went home with cheryl, chee wei, alan, kenny, kenneth and wee liang. as usual, talk cock as we walk towards the mrt station. hot topic for today was, "So U Think U R Multi-Lingual?" it all started with chee wei tagging each n everyone of us on one of his photos at facebk. it was a photo of a pork dish. i mean, wth? anyways, we were talking about dim sums n pork dishes yada yada and suddenly chee wei was like..."eh, i noe a couple of malay dishes like nasi lemak, mee rebus, mee siam. noodle in malay is mee n rice is nasi rite. see, i noe! whatelse? ouh, i noe ikan bilis. ikan is fish rite. see, my malay very gd." i started laughing. kenny also kept boasting how gd his knowledge of malay words was..."when i go malaysia, i can even read the road signs like berhenti. it means stop rite." chee wei told me that his command of malay is way better than my command of chinese. the rest kept laughing, with their faces turning red. at the station, chee wei was like..."i can sing malay songs u noe. mari kita rakyat singapura...sama-sama maju ke hadapan...den u? u noe chinese songs meh?" i started singing (in an off-tune key.just dun wanna boast d real nice voice i have.haha!)..."char shao bao...wa yao, wa yao ni..." hahaha! chee wei mentioned that he noes not just malay but other languages as well. he started speaking spanish (well,he took spanish lessons.damn it.) and french and japanese and thai...the list went on. the most hilarious part was when he said..."i can speak african (with his eyes so wide): wakalele wakalele! i even noe red indian (with his hand on his mouth): aooaooaoooooo!" all of us couldn't take it. we laughed our asses off. i swear we were the loudest in the cabin! it was really oh-my-gawd-can-u-stop-it-chee-wei moment. but hell yeah, we had fun!

loved =D

what is life?

2009-04-27T23:31:00.010+08:00

Life

is never

a bed of roses.

Some

may grow stronger

as they brave storms.

But some

may collapse

in the raving weather.

confused

2009-04-19T18:02:00.004+08:00

discovered some unexpected news today. a mixture of feelings. dont know whether i should be happy or sad or what. definitely uncomfortable with the state that im in now. my feelings, my thoughts. all starting to go wild, in different directions. which path shall i follow? where will it lead me to? will i find what i want there? i dont know. i dont know.

a melancholic smile, i put on. am i faking it? am i denying it? i dont know. i dont know.

APRIL FOOL

2009-04-01T23:19:00.006+08:00

and so i got fooled twice today...by the same person...wtf! but whateva lah. glad he realized that it will be vulnerable if he does it the third time...DAMN! i should have known better lah. but ouh well, im just a nice gurl who doesn't have any intention or have anything in mind to fool anyone on this very day.

april fool aside, today was the first time i went for a slimming treatment at london weight management. gawd, I FELT LIKE A SHEEP, following the beautician here and there, this room lah, that room lah, take off ur clothes lah. yada yada yada...to kick start, i had this aroma steam bath. it was FCUKING hot! for 15 mins, I FELT LIKE A ROASTED CHICKEN, waiting to be eaten by some super hungry Giant. ''U have to cover ur whole face with a damp towel for easy breathing,'' she said. easy kebabai. for a moment, i thought i was gonna faint coz each time i breathe, i had to take a very deep breath. but man, my whole body was covered with sweat after that 15 mins of roasting. hahaha. this whole treatment made me feel gooood actually. i lost 7.5cm in all. oklah, better than nothing. so let's just wait and see what's in for the next treatment...

Dalam Hati Ada Cinta

2009-03-19T23:32:00.009+08:00

cinta. ada apa pada cinta? memang semua manusia nak dibelai, dimanja, dikasihi, dicintai. tapi sebenarnya ia menyakitkan. dalam sekelip mata saja kita kecewa. tapi kekecewaan itu juga yang mengajar kita erti kehidupan...memang seronok kalau dalam hati ada cinta.

tiba-tiba saja kita rasa kita suka seseorang tu. cara dia bercakap, perangai dia, semua lah pasal dia kita suka. kalau tak jumpa sehari, hidup rasa tak sempurna. semua yang kita buat tak kena. tapi ye lah, hidup kan penuh dengan pengorbanan...entah lah macam mana nak cakap bila dalam hati ada cinta.

kadang-kadang dalam hidup ni, sesuatu perkara yang berlaku tu tak pernah kita duga. bila ia nak jadi, jadilah. bila tak jadi, tak jadilah. hati dan perasaan satu perkara yang sangat pelik. kita jumpa seseorang tu, kita suka pada dia. tapi jodoh dan pertemuan Tuhan yang tentukan...tapi nak buat macam mana kalau dalam hati ada cinta?

tomorrow is Fry-ur-Day

2009-03-05T23:39:00.003+08:00

omg.

TOMORROW!

A'S RESULT!

it scares the shit out of me.

and now my heart goes, "dap dup dap dup dap dup (x 10 to the power of infinity)..."

Tunggu Sekejap

2009-02-25T20:06:00.002+08:00

tunggu sekejap

wahai kasih

kerana hujan masih renyai.

tunggu sekejap

dalam pelukan asmaraku.

jangan bimbang

walaupun siang akan menjelma.

malam ini

belum puas ku bercumbu dengan kanda.

tunggu sekejap

wahai kasih.

tunggulah sampai hujan teduh.

mari ku dendang

jangan mengenang orang jauh.

jangan pulang

jangan tinggalkan daku seorang.

tunggu sekejap

kasih.

tunggu.

Saint Valentine is A Kafir Priest

2009-02-14T19:29:00.006+08:00

well, that's what my monster said.

hehehe.

simply love his intelligence, his wits, his laughter.

Friday the 13th

2009-02-14T01:26:00.008+08:00

after work, had dinner with colleagues at Pizza Hut. initially, the guys wanted Fish n Co...but knowing that i can only eat halal food, they changed their mind (fyi, i'm the only Malay). haha, sweeeeet rite...i swear that all eyes were on us when we laughed our butts off as we talked about NS in the restaurant. all thanks to Wee Liang! then, we had S'mores (a heavenly choc ice-cream filled with delightful toasted marshmallows) at Ben n Jerry's and talked cock for a while. next, climbed the never-ending stairs behind PS to get to old school. didn't noe such place exist in S'pore lah. camwhoring with them jap and then went back to Cathay. relek one corner and shared jokes. we played the 'Fazzie Wazzie' game lah, 'Around the World in 80 days' lah. hahaha...and the funny thing is, all of us got addicted and want to continue this thing after work on monday. WTH! they want the 'MRT' game and the infamous 'How Many Mbek-Mbek Jump Over the Wall' game. LOL. thank god i noe how to play these 2. YAY...didn't realize it was 11plus already. and we chiong all the way to catch the last train home.....

IT'S TOO GOOOOOD TO BE TRUE!

2009-02-09T22:45:00.005+08:00

if u're happy and u noe it, clap ur hands. (clap clap)

if u're happy and u noe it, clap ur hands. (i'm clapping!)

if u're happy and u noe it and u really want to show it,

if u're happy and u noe it, clap ur hands. (ouh hell yeah i'm clapping :)

the monster with a heart

2009-02-08T01:15:00.000+08:00

Tonite, you took my woes away.

Tonite, you made my day.

Thank you, my lil' monster...

imperfection

2009-02-07T21:21:00.012+08:00

leave me alone. i need my own space. i need peace. just stop the whole damn drama. and for goodness sake, don't blame me for it. don't talk to me about respect. don't act as if u're perfect. everybody has flaws lah damn it! and never provoke me. u know i'll get nasty. if u don't wanna get hurt, just shut the hell up and buzz off. i'm so sick and tired of the bloody drama. i don't wanna waste my time and breath on such stupid thing ever again. please. enough is enough!

fuck lah.

sick. sick. sick.

2009-02-04T20:05:00.003+08:00

woke up at abt 4.30am yesterday coz of diarrhoea. vomited a few times. called my colleague saying that i'm not coming to work. tried to sleep again. but i kept tossing and turning. discovered that i had a fever. whole body was aching. plus the m cramps. my gawd! went to the doctor and then ate the medicine. knocked out due to the drugs effect. couldn't eat much. no appetite. kept sleeping the whole day. and today, feeling a bit better. better than yesterday. thank God.

weird but pleasant

2009-01-31T23:23:00.000+08:00

what a weird but pleasant saturday...

was having lunch when R smsed out of the blue.
was watching 'Om Shanti Om' when mum asked to follow her shopping.
was waiting for R to reply but instead, it was F who messaged!!!
was in the car to tamp interchange when both eyes caught a glimpse of someone familiar...H!
was in the toilet when S suddenly called.

great...what's next??

i'm not dead

2009-01-28T18:35:00.004+08:00

hello hello hello.

i'm not dead, fyi. it's just that i've been bz with work. and my comp went crazy again lah. arrgh. stupid comp! bcoz of it, i'm missing my virtual community each day =( how have u guys been uh? haha. ouh well, i guess that for the next few months or so, more time will be spent on resting and sleeping and sleeping and sleeping. tired lah. need to travel all the way up north okeyyy. and i'm telling u, transport expenses are killing me! ass. if only the student rate is still applicable to me. aiyah. but anyways, i enjoy working (well, at this point of time, i would say 'training' is more appropriate). love my new colleagues! this eleanor and simin ah are killing my stomach each day with their nonsense. ouh well. laughter is the best medicine after all. so just laugh! hahahahahaha.

okey, gtg. laters.

and she said,

2009-01-12T23:11:00.002+08:00

"i miss him."

It's My Birthday!

2009-01-08T00:00:00.000+08:00

HaPpY bIrThDaY tO mE!!!

life, as it is.

2009-01-07T03:00:00.007+08:00

it's 3 am in the morning and here i am blogging my life away. well, it's 7 of jan and i noe what that means. just one more day and my age will increase by 1 year. how time flies huh.

pelbagai pengalaman pahit manis yang telah aku lalui sepanjang 18 tahun hidup di bumi ini. memang tidak dinafikan, pengalaman-pengalaman itu banyak membantu aku untuk mengerti erti kehidupan yang sebenar. aku redha dengan ketentuan Illahi. aku tahu Dia akan sentiasa menguji makhluk-makhlukNya. kadangkala, manusia berada di atas dan ada pula berada di bawah. kehidupan ini ibarat roda yang sering berputar. bohonglah kalau ada diantara kita yang mengatakan kita tidak pernah dilanda kesusahan. pasti setiap daripada kita pernah merasai kegagalan/keperitan dalam hidup. tetapi, ada juga segolongan tu seolah-olah tidak mengambil iktibar daripada kegagalan yang dihadapi. mereka tidak berusaha untuk memperbaiki diri mahupun keadaan. inilah yang dipanggil manusia berkepala batu; mereka yang bersikap degil. atau mungkin, ego mereka terlalu tinggi? sememangnya amat payah untuk meruntuhkan tiang ego ni.

walaubagaimana pun, tiada istilah 'manusia sempurna'. dalam bahasa inggeris, 'nobody is perfect'. ye, aku akur dengan kenyataan ini. tetapi, manusia diberikan akal untuk berfikir. apa yang membezakan manusia dengan haiwan ialah akal fikiran kita. dengan menggunakan akal, kita dapat membezakan yang baik dengan yang buruk. oleh itu, manusia tidak ada alasan untuk tidak memperbaiki diri atau keadaan kerana hakikatnya kita telah dikurniakan akal. susah sangat ke untuk berfikir? atau mungkin, mereka takut untuk menerima kenyataan? kenyataan yang akan mereka hadapi sekiranya mereka/keadaan berubah. mungkin kenyataan itu perit untuk ditelan. tetapi, 'the truth hurts'. yang penting, kita sebagai manusia menggunakan akal fikiran kita dengan sebaik mungkin untuk cuba merubah diri mahupun keadaan.

pengalaman hidup telah banyak mendewasakan aku sebagai seorang manusia. kadang-kadang aku terfikir, adakah aku sebagai makhlukNya, sebagai anak, sebagai kakak, sebagai teman, sebagai pelajar, sebagai manusia telah berusaha untuk menjadi yang terbaik untuk diriku juga terhadap mereka yang aku sayang?

aku teringat akan kata-kata seseorang bahawa 'God doesn't want you to be the best; He wants you to do your best.' bila ku renung, ada kebenaran dalam ayat tersebut. sesungguhnya, kita sebagai insan yang kerdil lagi lemah di sisi Allah s.w.t. hanya mampu untuk melakukan yang terbaik mengikut kemampuan masing-masing. yang penting, kita berusaha.....

Me to You

2009-01-05T01:06:00.006+08:00

What makes bonding special

the way each one

remembers the other

when they're apart

and

they missed

the talks, the laugh

and the times they were together.

Life changes...

Memories don't...

Happy 2009!!!

2009-01-01T21:53:00.009+08:00

went out with mas on new year's eve. nothing beats going out with a bestie and sharing fun moments together. so we ate at tong seng's, and as usual, i would order chicken mushroom noodle. then, we took the train, alight at city hall and off we went to marina square. tried some clothes at dorothy perkins but was half-hearted to buy them. okey fine, im just fickle-minded and fussy. yes yes, i admit it. dah diam!!

hahaha. actually, mas asked her sweetie to join us and maybe, have a game of bowling together. but, in the end, only me and mas played bowling coz nak tunggu sweetie dia mcm lambat gitu. but i hate yesterday's game. stupid lane lah. tak well-polished. not like safra's. damn it. then the kasut also mcm tak sedap dipakai. argghhh. wasted my bloody 6 bucks. whateva man!

next, went to the toilet to touch-up. u noe lah, gurls rite. need to maintain their make-up and all. haha. then, got a call from pakcik (aka mas' sweetie). said that he was at compasspoint. i knew he was lying coz he was like asking me where we were and which floor. so yah, i knew he had something up his sleeve. haha. funny lah that pakcik. and yup yup, mas was freaking out coz she also had this feeling that pakcik is somewhere at marina square. as the saying goes, great minds think alike =)

and true enuf, the man himself came running towards us when he was on the phone with mas. and im tellin ya, she hide herself behind me again! FGS, stoppit eh gurl. hahaha. i mean, that time pun u sembunyi depan i bila first time kita jumpa dia at his office. hahahahahahahaha. but yah, i knew what was going on in her heart. of course, from experience...

and pakcik gave us a surprise! he bought her a cute teddy bear and i got doraemon! he's such a nice guy. and all of us took a stroll at esplanade. and omg, there were many people! i dont have anything against huge crowds. nothing of that sort. i feel that new year's eve is one of those times whereby people of all races come together and celebrate something special and just be merry in each other's company.

31 december 2008...the start of something new, i guess, for both my bestie and her sweetie. seeing happiness oozing from every pore of her skin, i never felt better. im happy for them. the feeling is simply unexplainable.

well, to round it off, it's goodbye 2008 and hello 2009!!! i hope that this new year will bring good fortune and good health to the people that i care for. may all of us find peace, harmony as well as prosperity.

and to whom it may concerned, i pray that our relationship will flourish just like those flowers that bloom beautifully and healthily.

take care peeps.

date

2008-12-29T23:59:00.004+08:00

so it was today.
yes, today.
29 december 2008.
we met.
i'll never forget this day.
yes, this day.
when we first met.
when we first smiled at each other.
when we first lost in each other's eyes.
God.
only You know what went through my mind today.

Fadilicious...

2008-12-27T23:58:00.008+08:00

loves lepak-ing at mas' house.
loves watching the exorcism of emily rose.
loves eating canadian's singapura special.
loves drinking diet coke.
loves biting sweets.
loves watching f.r.i.e.n.d.s.
loves laughing-out-loud.
loves checking out horoscopes.
loves laughing at celebrities' failed plastic surgeries.
loves savouring ferrero rocher.
loves mas.
loves eja.

laid-back sunday

2008-12-21T22:42:00.019+08:00

today is laid-back sunday...
spent most of my time watching tv. and ouh gosh, i had a DAMN GOOD LAUGH today! it's been a long time since i had one. believe it or not, i laughed non-stop till i felt tears rolling down my cheeks!! bro told me, "u noe, i laughed not because jim carey was funny. i laughed because of ur freaking loud and addictive laughter! man, i haven't seen u laughed like that for quite sometime. good! good! laugh like that sumore, kakak. make me laugh!!!" *_*
Bruce Almighty really made me laugh so hard. i mean, jim carey is simply an amazing and talented actor. i just watched his new movie, Yes Man, last nite with my cuzzins. and i'm tellin' ya, u have to watch it! it's really brilliant! 2 thumbs-up!
and yes, believe it or not, i watched a whole damn football game today at channel 5! spore vs vietnam. i myself can't believe that i stay rooted to the sofa watching little men on a not-so-big field chasing after a goddamn tiny ball with hundreds of other tiny-weeny people jumping up and down cheering and boo-ing like non-stop hits. and turned out that it was a disappointing game. i mean, the lions had a lot of chances man. ouh ouh, i do like that no. 17 guy. shahril ishak, is he? hahaha. and alam shah, pantat mampat! such a hot ass! woohooooo!! ouh well, to the lions, better luck next year i guess...
(eh, next year ada ke? atau suzuki cup nie mcm world cup gitu? entah lah. i ni bukan lah football fan sangat. hmmm.)

To My Beloved Grandma

2008-12-12T21:42:00.008+08:00

One Sweet Day

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

And now it's too late to hold you

'Cause you've flown away

So far away

Never had I imagined

Living without your smile

Feeling and knowing you hear me

It keeps me alive

Alive

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Picture a little scene from Heaven

Darling, I never showed you

Assumed you'd always be there

I took your presence for granted

But I always cared

And I miss the love we shared

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Picture a lilttle scene from Heaven

Although the sun will never shine the same

I'll always look to a brighter day

Lord I know when I lay me down to sleep

You will always listen as I pray

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

And I know you're shining down on me from Heaven

Like so many friends we've lost along the way

And I know eventually we'll be together

One sweet day

Picture a little scene from Heaven

Sorry I never told you

All I wanted to say

To my beloved Nenek Djamaliah,

I miss you.

I love you.

But,

God loves you more than I do.

I'm sorry for it's too late to tell you,

all I wanted to say.

But,

I know that you're in a better place now.

And I know that one day,

we'll be together again.

You'll always be in my heart, Nenek.

I love you.

Rest in peace.

happy is the word for today

2008-11-27T23:05:00.004+08:00

i'm so glad that her plans worked out today. we did surprise him with choc truffles!!! yay!!! and i'm happy for her coz she's been kindda pessimistic abt this plan. but yeah, i tried my best to convince her that if we do not give it a try, we never noe...

and yeah, the plan did work out v well! hahahahaha. it was super funny. mas made me called maz nye office saying that i wanna go there for a job interview but don't noe the address! and we were trying our best to figure out whether it's DESU lane or DEFU lane. i told her i never heard of any desu lane before. so yeah, knowing the name of his company, double-checked the add thru google and got it! took a cab and off we went...

and omg. i must admit. that hazman guy is so handsome. but yah, too bad, he's taken. no chance lah coz he's a father of 3 kids!! hahaha. when we were at maz's office, mas was being so shy lah. hide behind me and all. and maz's colleagues were like smiling at us like u noe, what are these 2 gurls up to? LOL. so yeah, when the man himself finally came down, mas was really shy and whispered, "omg! maz is here! maz is here!" when i turned around, true enuf, that's mazlan! omg, in my mind i was like, "is that maz? the one i just talked to on the phone last nite?" i mean, i just can't believe i got to see him today! i thought after passing those choc truffles to his colleague, then blah. but no! we got to meet him! omg! haha. and i shouted "happy birthday maz!" hahaha.

i'm just happy for mas. seeing her so happy today, makes me feel happy. i'm overjoyed! yay!!!

i noe that i made someone's day today. i'm happy seeing others happy.

10 Fakta Tentang Diriku

2008-11-20T21:17:00.011+08:00

I was forced to type this out...for fun!

10 FACTS ABOUT ME:

i'm into drama, theatre, musicals, acting and directing.
i love to sing in my room whenever the door is closed.
i'm an organized, orderly and a creative person.
i think i have a tiny-weeny-bit of OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder).
i like to talk to the mirror.
i love chocolates and cheese.
i like to watch cooking shows like nigella express, naked chef, kylie kwong and surreal gourmet.
i hate it whenever people disturb me when i'm sleeping, eating or resting.
i'm not aggressive unless provoked.
and hell yeah, don't make me angry coz u won't like me when i am.

Let this fun carry on...I want Eja, Nad, Raz, Zuh, Dynn, Bani, Hannah, Fida, Aisha and Naz to write 10 facts about yourselves aite! (if u read this post, please take note eh)

happysadWed

2008-11-19T23:58:00.003+08:00

happy. excited for her. she better plan sumthin' for next thurs eh. must must. hah!

today...
bought shoes and earrings at bugis street. cheap. good quality. so yah lah, damn happy.
BUT, it was raining. didn't bring umbrella with me (aiyah, umbrella spoilt leh). couldn't eat Chicken Mushroom Noodle at Tong Seng coz couldn't cross the road. so yah lah, sad. kempunan!!! haiyah. oh well...

OVERRR!!!

2008-11-18T23:49:00.010+08:00

IT'S OVERRRRRRRRRR!!!

YEAAAHUH! MY A'S ARE FINALLY OVER!

gosh, i'm just so happy rite now. all those grueling weeks of muggin' and studyin' are finally over. and yes, like he said, i survived the A's without turning into a freak! alhamdullilah, everything is over now. and i'm telling u for the next few days, i'm so gonna enjoy myself. maybe do crazy stuff like hmmmmm...errrrr...haven't thought abt it yet. -_-'

newaes, after phy paper tadi, went back home and slept for 2 hours. woke up, called my cousin and off we went shopping! shop shop shop till we dropped! hahahaha. it's so fun lah! u noe rite when gurls get together, KECOHness is a must! tried on this, tried on that. almost everything lah! ouh ouh! i bought this blue dress with colourful prints on it at metro. LUV IT! bought other stuff too like earrings and blahblahblah...woah, but i tell u ah. if this shopping and all goes on and becomes an everyday habit, kepala boleh botak liao. hangus seh pocket! then what? rompak bank ah??? siao!!!

and yeah, i just want the whole world to noe that i'm done with my A's.

FINALLY, FREEDOM IS MINE!!!

14 November 2008

2008-11-14T23:56:00.013+08:00

so i was sleeping.....dreaming abt sumthing.....
and the time was only 5.53am, heard my cell ringing...
unfamiliar no. lah...so i was like, "siapa seh call pagi-pagi buta mcm nie? takder otak btol! kacau org tido jer!"
and i picked up the phone...

"hello?"
"hello fadilah. gd morning!"
"omg!!! u!!! u called??? hahahaha. what a pleasant surprise!"

and immediately i woke up from my deep slumber and started talking to him on the phone... it was so sweet of him lah, coz his intention of calling me early in the morning was to wake me up for my morning prayer (eventho i set alarm clock at 6.15am)...but nonetheless, sweet of him rite?? i mean like, where he was, it was already like 11plus at night and it was time for him to sleep already...such a sweet guy =)

and he called me again today when the time in spore was like 8pm...and we talked for hours...and then we continued chatting online...hehehe...love it! he's damn funny! likes to laugh a lot, i mean A LOT!

and yeah, earlier today, when i was about to take the lift to my house...u noe what? when the lift door opened, a cat suddenly rushed out! i tell u, i was damn shocked!!! luckily, i didn't scream! if not for my strong heart ah, i think i would have fainted...

and yeah, i'm missing someone so badly...but yah, he did call me and sms me saying that he's fine in melaka. gosh, i can't wait for his return on sun!!! miss him so much...

and yeah, there was a lil' misunderstanding between me and my best friend earlier on...but yah, everything is ok rite now. whateva happens, i still love her. nothing can change the fact that we are best friends.

and i do love my best friends a lot. (love u mas. love u eja. love u puv.)

"HEAD STONE"

2008-11-13T21:43:00.005+08:00

kenapa orang berkepala batu?
sebab mereka ada pendirian sendiri dan mahu berpegang teguh pada pendirian mereka itu.

kenapa orang berkepala batu?
sebab mereka mahu menguji kesabaran orang-orang yang mendorong/mendesak mereka supaya berkepala batu.

kenapa orang berkepala batu?
sebab mereka sebenarnya memang bersikap degil sejak dari kecil lagi.

kenapa orang berkepala batu?
sebab ternyata dalam kepala mereka terdapat sebiji batu yang besar nak mampos sehinggakan ia amat sukar untuk dibedah doktor pakar.

eh BOREDOM, F(ish) off lah!

2008-11-12T23:56:00.008+08:00

i'm feeling so bored today.
a lot of sleeping.
errr...when i say a lot, means A LOT!

gosh i hate this.
i hate to laze around with nothing to do.

BORED OF BOREDOM.
I AM THE LIVING DEAD.

yeah rite...

gosh.
should have asked someone to go out with me today.
but nah, all my frends are having their papers.

shuddup lah.
stoppit eh.
papers papers papers!
haiyoh.....
how i wish tmr is 18 november.

anyone got time-machine not? or know anyone who has it?
lend me leh...please please please!

OMG.

ku mencintaimu
lebih dari apa pun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu
ku mencintaimu
sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya
kekasih gelapku...

FYI, i was typing those lyrics above while hearing the song being played on air. love this song v v v much!

UHUH =D

ok fine, bottom-line is...today was just a plain boring day for me.
i hate to sleep so much.
like a lazy ba-bey!

sheesh.

eh BOREDOM, F(ish) off lah!

only God knows.....

2008-11-09T02:49:00.009+08:00

"i've seen u somewhere before...i think i know u...but...hmmm, have we met?"

"i think i'm having dejavu...gosh, as if i was here before...stoppit eh! ouh gawd..."

eventhough it was only for a while,

i keep thinking that i've known u before.

like...i've seen u somewhere...

when we talked, it's as if we're buddies.

like...i've been ur good friend for a very long time...

and the best part???

it's when u said that u were there when i was there...in the same building...but just different rooms...

GOSH!!!

weird huh? what a small world!

we could have known each other back in november last year...

when we talked,

i could really feel the chemistry between us.

it's as if we're buddies!

i could talk to u about almost anything,

even if it was rubbish.

u would put up with my nonsense,

my utter rubbish nonsense.

but hey!

u've got ur own nonsense to share too,

and ur nonsense was more nonsensical than mine.

seriously!

and now,

when u're gone,

away from me,

far from me,

miles away,

on the other side of the world,

i feel that

a part of me is missing.

well,

that's how i'm feeling right now.

it's as if

a part of me is over there.

yes,

over there.

maybe with you.

maybe not.

or maybe,

it's because i miss the place?

or is it

because i miss you?

miss you?

really?

maybe.

it's a weird yet funny feeling that i'm having.

hahaha.

i think i've known u before,

from our previous lives maybe?

hmmm...

only God knows.

today today today!!!

2008-11-06T22:12:00.008+08:00

today i had chem paper 3.

today i went to popeyes with my gurls for BRUNCH.

today i applied for relief reaching via online sign-up.

today i decided to stay away from my notes.

ONE down, A LOT to go.....

2008-10-31T21:26:00.010+08:00

ARRRGGGGHHHH!!! CAN U BELIEVE IT? I'M SITTING FOR MY A'S RITE NOW!

WHAT THE HECK? really uh? a levels?

hahahaha. crap. okok fine!
had my 1st paper yesterday: Malay Lit (BAHASA COMPONENT)
today, had the LIT COMPONENT. my gawd, i tell u, i think my head is half cracked already. see lah, as a result of climbing steep hills!

ouh well, i guess i have to continue this journey. haiz. life seems tough rite now. need courage to face it.

discipline. diligence. discernment. determination. daring. duty.

woah, out of sudden, all the 6D's came out. yeah, i miss dunman. ouh ouh! there's gonna be a dunman drama-mama camp organized by my drama-mama juniors this coming nov. and yay! i'm so gonna join in and have fun yo! woohoooooooooo!

BUT FOR NOW, NO WOOHOOOOOOOOOOs i guess..... maybe BOOHOOOOOOOOOOs???

BONKY-WONKY

2008-10-27T05:02:00.012+08:00

life is just so boring rite now...MUGGING and MUGGING...and yeah, no need to mention lah the amount of stress that i'm feeling at this period of time...but luckily i have him, yg menemani diriku saat aku memerlukan seseorang untuk berbicara, melepaskan rindu...dah stoppit eh fad!

see i tell u, i'm going bonky-wonky already...and yeah, i'm just mentally worn-out...

ouh god, please help me with all these...give me strength ya allah...i need ur guidance ya allah...amin...

Phone Calls and SMSes to Cure 2 Hearts

2008-10-21T12:52:00.006+08:00

Uhuh...
so before leaving for tioman, made a promise with me that he would make a total of 5 calls for 3 days. and i was like..."hmmm, just 5?" and giggled away. and he said, "ok. how abt 3 times a day?" WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE..........

1st day = 4 calls
2nd day = 4 calls
3rd day = 12 calls

omgomgomgomg.
Total : 4 + 4 + 12 = 20 CALLS!!!
20 calls, not including the number of SMSes he sent me.

i still remembered when i got the 1st call, it was a private no. lah fyi (no. malaysia). so i asked, "siapa nie?" then i heard a familiar voice, "alah. sampai hati u tak kenal suara i."
and immediately i jumped with joy! like OMG! IT'S HIM!!! yay yay...hahaha ok, LOL!
he missed me, i missed him...we missed each other...

to cure these 2 hearts, phone calls and SMSes were the remedy.

And now, he's home...

GOSH

2008-10-17T19:29:00.007+08:00

ouh gawd...i'm gonna miss him a lot...seriously a lot. coz he's going away to tioman island for 3 days, nak diving with his friends. gosh...
okok, i'm sad coz he won't be ard frm tmr till mon and that means i won't get the chance to see him on webcam. BUT BUT, he said he'll call me when he has the chance to...so yay!

and he said he'll miss me a lot...awww =D

ok dah, waiting anxiously for his calls and SMSes...wheeeee =)

what is this called?

2008-10-15T19:32:00.004+08:00

LOVE LOVE LOVE

Compassion

Lotsa KISSes

Sweet Tender Love

Affection

sMiLeS

FEELings

EMOtions

Romance

JoY

hApPiNeSs

SatISfactION

playful

WiLd

NAUGHTY

SEXy
AdvenTurouS

Romance...

RENDEZVOUS...

Romance...

what happened on OCTOBER 13th

2008-10-14T17:33:00.009+08:00

felt so tired after yesterday's jalan raya with my JC friends...but it was damn fun lah, camwhoring and stuff. and u noe rite, when girls get together, they'll gossip non-stop. hahahaha. cool shittos. talking abt other peeps, like who's with who lah, that person likes this person lah, how to treat ur BFs lah and blah blah blah. the list goes on...

and after jalan raya rite......................
last night was one of the sweetest nights i've ever had in my life.
shall not elaborate on that. hehe, let it be a secret between me and him...

okok fine...all i can say is that after i reached home safely, we talked on the phone.

dah. end of story.

Secret Lover

2008-10-07T16:49:00.009+08:00

last nite, spent some time reading my lit book. and he called me. we talked and talked. and then,
i heard this on the phone...

ku mencintai mu
lebih dari apa pun
meskipun tiada satu orang pun yang tahu.
ku mencintai mu
sedalam-dalam hatiku
meskipun engkau hanya
kekasih gelapku.

-Kekasih Gelapku by Ungu-

uhuh, he sang that song.
when i asked him who's his 'kekasih gelap' (in eng means secret lover),
he said..."You."

and an unexplained feeling bloomed in this little heart.

missing each other...

2008-10-03T23:07:00.008+08:00

he gave me a call today coz he miss me.

and i miss him too.

we miss each other.

yes, we do.

Hola!

2008-09-29T18:18:00.013+08:00

hey hey hey...how have u been doin', my dear bloggy? i miss u honey...

hahaha. ok crap! shush! so 2 days ago, went to Ria's Jualan Amal at Tamp Blk 136 to see my fav. dj's like KC, Fiza O and Nitty Baizura! wheeeee =) got to see them up on stage and took pics of Adi Rahman and Hafiz Glamour. I think Adi is hot stuff ah, with his hairstyle and all (dah mcm bintang Bollywood)...ouh yah! Shah Ibrahim actually talked to me!!! hahahaha. im so honoured can...he said, "Adik dah amek bubur tadi?" and I was like, "Yah, dah dapat tadi. Terima kasih." then he said, "Betul nie? Ok." and smiled at me =)
then, went to geylang bazaar with fav. cuzzin and her sayang to buy some last min stuff for a 'complete' rayer this year. then, went to Paya Lebar SingPost and we tot of buka-ing at KFC. BUT, the KFC was damn PACKED! ok lor, so no choice rite but to tapau the finger-licking-good food and eat somewhere else...and u noe where? in my cuzzin's Honda Fit! sheesh...what a place man. hahahaha! newaes, it was hella fun buka-ing and laughing in the car (eat eat eat like there's no tmr only).
and that nite, slept over at my aunt's place. sibuk2 made kuih tart and milo cornflakes. i simply love baking cookies! hahaha. got to taste them also mah...
and last nite, went online, webcam-ing with him. simply love yesterday...wheeeee =D

-ok dah-

Recent Happenings!!!

2008-09-23T01:04:00.014+08:00

oh well...let's just start blogging, shall we?

okies...so i haven't been blogging for quite some time. as a perfectly fine, sane and normal human being, i did went thru some ups and downs these past few days. hmmm, let's just cherish the happie moments kaes...

*oh gosh, i've been thinking abt him lately*

so on the 17th, went out with my BFs...BestFriends lah not BoyFriends! hah! anywaes, i really really had a BLAST with my 2 girls, Eja and Mas...we're just FUN ppl lah. so we...

buka at Popeye's
jln-jln ard T3 and went to Candy Empire and did some crazy stuff there...I simply LOVE CHOCOLATES coz they turn me on =)
went to T2 and sat down in-front of Polar to rest
started gossiping like nobody's business (padahal bulan puasa eh, rabak)
laughed our butts off as we watched some funny videos from Mas nye HP
GOT A CALL FROM HIM! gosh i tell u, i was in a shock coz at that time, Eja was bluetooth-ing our photos from my HP. tot she accidentally called him ke apa...but i loike!!! (coz we sort of lepaskan rinduuu to each other) =D

*oh gosh, he's taking up a lot of space in my mind*

on the 19th, went to SingPost at Tamp Interchange to sign, seal, deliver a gift and a kad rayer to Siti Suzani bte Haji Mail who's in Brunei rite now! hahaha. my 1st time buat kerje mcm nie and being kiasu and paranoid and all, i actually brought a $50 note in my purse. but, it only cost $10.95 altogether. sheesh. cheat my feelings only. oh well, better get the umbrella ready before it starts raining rite...

*oh gosh, i think i miss him*

on the 20th, stayed over at my aunt's place in woodlands (sanggup eh, from east to north) and baked choc chip cookies together with my cuzzins for rayer! i had a great time eating and eating and eating the cookies while they were busy baking them...hahaha...hey, at least i did helped out in baking some kaes...

*oh gosh, i do miss him*

on the 21st, went out with my cuzzins to bedok, shopping for toiletries and bedsheets and then buka at banquet (fad step buka, padahal padahal!). haha! saw my senior, shiffa, at the western stall. fyi, she worked there lah and was getting orders and yeah, damn pack sey! i had to wait for like 20 min just to get my cheese fries!!! sheesh.

*oh gosh, i miss him*

*i miss him*

*i really miss him*

*i really really miss him*

*i really really really miss him*

ADORABLE

2008-09-16T23:17:00.014+08:00

today my cuzzin brought along his 3 month-old daughter to our home. name is NAYLI QISTINA. that lil angel is so adorable!!

I just have this liking for babies and small kids...NOT that I'm a pedophile lah please! I just LOVE little children...Especially those who have round cheeks (like having 2 small Paus stucked on their face kindda thing). Hehehehe. Ok, enough of my crap...Qistina is just so cute! When I took photos of her, she kept looking at the camera, as if she knew that she was supposed to pose. So photogenic ;)

Okey, and due to her unique name, I came up with a few names too...Hehehe...

SOFIE ARISSA, QASEH ADHANIE, ARYL SHAFAWIE and DANIEL ANAQIE.

Nice not?

(fyi, these names are copyrighted k.)

Dah shooo!!!

A Woman's Tale

2008-09-13T01:20:00.007+08:00

A woman
should be her husband's
last love.
Her husband

has to make
all the possible mistakes,
and learn from them,
before he is worthy
of her undying love.
Before she says "I do",
after he kneels down
before her
with a sparkling stone
in his wobbly hand,
let him enjoy
all the fun in the world.
Just let him be.
Oh let him be.
For one day,
when he realizes
he has seen enough
of the devil's playground,
he will choose to settle down
in the chamber of paradise.
His last love
shall be
his wife;
his life-partner,
his best friend,
his guardian,
his angel,
his soul-mate.
Till death
do they part...

geylang bazaar

2008-09-06T22:19:00.003+08:00

The day before today (which is yesterday lah...hahaha), I went out with Ain and we took bus no. 28 to Geylang. We wanted to buka puasa at banquet actually, but since it was only 5 plus, we decided to window shop at Joo Chiat Complex...Survey baju rayer ah apa lagi...Hahaha...You noe, I was madly in love with this kebaya panjang which was like pink in colour (to be exact, it's fuschia fyi) and it only costs $59. Cheap rite?? Gosh, if only I had enough money at that time I would have bought it seh...It was almost 6pm and Ain suggested that we should book a table at banquet for fear that there would be no more seats for us. We sat there, waiting patiently for buka time (eventhough my stomach was already playing the 'new year drums' and my nose went itchy smelling the sensational aroma of scrumptious food from every stall). And yah, I randomly told Ain part of my love story to get rid of my hunger, and she went "Aww~" all the time...Hahaha...The time was 6.30pm and Ain ordered food. Buka time, I ate Fried Kway Teow Teochew style while my girlfriend ate Hokkien Mee (hmm, I wonder if there's Cantonese Mee or something). And after that, off we went to TKC and the bazaar next to Paya Lebar MRT to look out for the latest fashion for this year's rayer...I had a blast with Ain, laughing-out-loud and we both went 'GAGA' over the displayed clothes!

Cinta dan Erti Percintaan

2008-08-31T17:57:00.011+08:00

Cinta...
Cinta kepada Tuhan;
Pencipta Alam semesta,
Yang menjadikan, menghidupkan dan mematikan,
Kerana Dia Maha Mengetahui,
Segala isi perut yang ada pada bumi.

Cinta...
Cinta kepada Ibu;
Insan yang terunggul,
Yang melahirkan, menyusukan dan membesarkan,

Tidak pula meminta sebarang balasan,
Meskipun dalam diam,
Dirinya cukup sengsara,
Sepi jeritannya,
Dan tidak megah akan pengorbanannya,
Kerana beliau mengerti,
Kebahagiaan keluarga,
Adalah segala-galanya yang diperjuangkan.

Cinta...
Cinta kepada Ayah;
Kepala rumahtangga,
Yang membanting tulang,
Siang mahupun malam,
Berkeringat tanpa henti,
Meskipun di hari tuanya,
Kerana beliau mengerti,
Keperluan keluarga,
Adalah tanggungjawab yang dipertaruhkan.

Cinta...
Cinta kepada Sahabat;
Insan yang terdekat,
Yang memahami, menemani dan menggembirakan,
Dan yang mencintai,
Meskipun tahu akan kelemahan diri ini,
Kerana dia mengerti,
Setiap manusia mewarisi cacat-cela kehidupan.

Cinta...
Cinta kepada Kekasih;
Insan yang istimewa,
Yang mengenali diri ini bukan atas ukuran,
Yang menyayangi diri ini bukan atas luaran,
Yang memanjakan diri ini bukan atas nafsu habuan,
Tetapi kerana Cinta,
Kerana dia mengerti,
Cinta yang lahir dari hati yang luhur,
Adalah Cinta sejati.

(Psst...If you find yourself in love with someone who doesn't love you, there's nothing wrong with you. It's just that love didn't choose to rest in that someone's heart. Love only chose you. And you noe, it's easy to make people fall for you, even easier to fall for someone else. The hardest thing to do is to forgive the person who has lifted you high up in the clouds and made you fall hard on the ground...)

Small Change Please...

2008-08-29T21:46:00.005+08:00

so there's this guy who came up to me and asked for some donations for the yellow ribbon project at downtown east...ok, it's not that i dun wanna donate, but i really had no small change at all, no coins...just really some BIG notes...i mean...it's not that i dun wanna support the yellow ribbon project...it's just that i really really really had no small change! so i told him that i'm sorie, i dun have a small change with me...but you noe wad? this guy actually followed me, persistently begging me to donate, even if it's just 20 cents...which part of my sentence does he not understand?? he literally followed me about a 100 metres from the starting point (err, yah...starting point). then, i stopped and looked at him...and he was like, ouh ok...i get it...

if i had a small change, i would have given him...really...

My First Time

2008-08-28T20:45:00.000+08:00

gosh! is this for real? i mean like, seriously?? i have a blog?
...i have a blog! uhuh uhuh...FINALLY...yayness ;)

Alrites, so here's the very First NONSENSE that you're gonna hear from me...

This is
My First Time
signing up for a blog,
having a blog,
designing a blog.

This is
My First Time
composing a post,
editing a post,
posting a post.

This is
My First Time
blogging. (like duh~)

-end of nonsense-