what is life?

Life

is never

a bed of roses.

Some

may grow stronger

as they brave storms.

But some

may collapse

in the raving weather.

confused

discovered some unexpected news today. a mixture of feelings. dont know whether i should be happy or sad or what. definitely uncomfortable with the state that im in now. my feelings, my thoughts. all starting to go wild, in different directions. which path shall i follow? where will it lead me to? will i find what i want there? i dont know. i dont know.

a melancholic smile, i put on. am i faking it? am i denying it? i dont know. i dont know.

APRIL FOOL

and so i got fooled twice today...by the same person...wtf! but whateva lah. glad he realized that it will be vulnerable if he does it the third time...DAMN! i should have known better lah. but ouh well, im just a nice gurl who doesn't have any intention or have anything in mind to fool anyone on this very day.

april fool aside, today was the first time i went for a slimming treatment at london weight management. gawd, I FELT LIKE A SHEEP, following the beautician here and there, this room lah, that room lah, take off ur clothes lah. yada yada yada...to kick start, i had this aroma steam bath. it was FCUKING hot! for 15 mins, I FELT LIKE A ROASTED CHICKEN, waiting to be eaten by some super hungry Giant. ''U have to cover ur whole face with a damp towel for easy breathing,'' she said. easy kebabai. for a moment, i thought i was gonna faint coz each time i breathe, i had to take a very deep breath. but man, my whole body was covered with sweat after that 15 mins of roasting. hahaha. this whole treatment made me feel gooood actually. i lost 7.5cm in all. oklah, better than nothing. so let's just wait and see what's in for the next treatment...